Today I Go, Boldly

Day 50

It is an extraordinary thing to suddenly start discovering myself at fifty years old. I thought I knew who I was, (and to some extent, I did,) but I didn't realise I could feel so different internally, or experience life from such a new perspective.

Take today, for instance. I woke up after a terrible night, with a thumping headache, stiff neck and shoulders, feet so painful I could barely walk, and tinnitus so loud I thought the car alarm had gone off. This is normally a recipe for thinking that things are a bit shit. Today, however, none of that mattered, because I could hardly wait to get down to the computer to finish sending off my manuscripts.

The difference is this - I am finally involved in creating a life that calls me forth and demands that I access my creative energy, that requires me to be who I truly am inside. The sense of balance that is growing within me seems comparable to some lost traveller, stranded out at sea for nineteen years and now finally standing on solid ground.

Internally I feel that something has shifted into it's rightful place, the cogs are beginning to run more smoothly, and the engine is sparking back into life. I know that this is how I must proceed with life, it is indisputable. I recommend to everyone - find your heart's desire, your true path, your unique purpose, and follow it, follow it, if you can no matter how long it takes to find.